Thursday, March 12, 2009

In sickness and in health...

For better, for worse.
For richer, for poorer.
In sickness....

I have been watching Scott for the past couple of weeks. It has been creeping back, the pain I mean. Sometimes he tries to hide it. But, it is back. After the surgery he was able to have some relief. He was back to his old self. Nearly. We were both hopeful that the surgery had worked. And it still may. But there is no denying that the symptoms are returning. So, Scott called Mayo today and talked to the doctor. We may be looking at more tests to see if something has happened since the surgery.

I guess this is the "in sickness" part. It is a constant struggle for me to sit back and watch, helpless to do anything for the man with whom I have been made one under God. Never would I knowingly forsake my vow to him. I vowed to be united with him in sickness and in health. But, I am not experiencing the physical pain that he is. How do I maintain that "oneness" when I cannot know what he is going through? He is suffering alone. I try to walk with him, beside him but ultimately, he walks alone.

So, how do I fulfill my vow? I ask myself this question today....

1 comment:

Sarah said...

My sister reads your blog and directed me to it. My boyfriend has ulcerative colitis, and I understand your family's struggles. Thank you for sharing your journey through all of the surgeries, etc. It is incredibly helpful to know what others are going through as we prepare for a life together that includes this sickness. I pray for healing for your husband and peace for your family. Thank you again for sharing!